It has literally been years...

I'm now a medical doctor, with the full degree of MD (with full LEGAL diploma to boot), and I came across my old blog, and thought I might update a bit. Ray Ashton is still a fraud, just like all these martial art BJJ frauds out there like James Paredes, Dave Lang, and Jay Queiroz on whom I've been seeing news updates on Facebook. Mr Ashton is still spewing bullshit and selling snake oil advice and "No box" seminars. Please do not entertain this man. www.affects.biz is his website, and he is clearly a fraudulent man. He should go to prison for all the money he essentially steals from people. If you meet him and happen to find my posts here, cut off all contact with him. So anyhow, what am *I* up to nowadays? I don't train much anymore, and I've honestly sacrificed a lot of my health to get this medical degree. I'm not FAT and TERRIBLY out of shape for the average man, but it's a far cry from what I used to be. Currently, I am studying for my exams, Step 1, Step 2CS, and Step 2CK, because I went to a medical school outside of the US, where the curriculum is not built for incorporating the test taking. But I have the foundation to study and to understand all that I need to, and for that I am so very grateful. But lately, it's been a struggle to study. Things don't come as easily as they used to, for me, and I'm always tired. Seeing at my last entry was years and years and years ago, things have changed. I'm a doctor. I have a wonderful beautiful girlfriend who I've been in a relationship with for just over five years. I have my brain more attuned to that of a healer. And at the same time, some things don't change. I still want to fight in MMA one day.

God help me

I am so tired. And I have to FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT yet still!

"Fate rarely calls at a time of our choosing."

I've lived so long...

... without a code, a standard to live by. And that's why my life and accomplishments in these past few years have been so mediocre. I know that point at which my life became unremarkable, because I didn't step up, and rise above it.

That changes now.

I won Mr Congeniality

People said I should have won most talented too, but oh well. :)

Guess who for the Class of 2014 Section D's candidate for Mr Med (and maybe Mr UST)...

me.

damn.

Today has been THE worst day I've ever had in med school...

Yes, there was a balls-hard biochem quiz.
Yes, I'm tired.
Yes, I'm feeling fkn MISERABLE.

I got a headache, I have stomach pain, I have joint pains. SUCK.

Add to that, I felt my fire for fighting begin to die out last night... And that feeling is still with me today.

I've been here since 7, and I won't be getting out until 6. Fkn BULLLLLLSHIT.

I love Jen tho.

Frustrations at not fitting in...

... but then again, perhaps I wasn't meant to.

Apparently, I'm 'too good looking' and too outgoing and that's why most of the Fil-Ams hate me.
And then it's my Fil-Am culture that, while friendly and kind to most people (Filipino and Fil-Am), makes my gf's barkada (group of friends) resistant to the idea of her and me being together.

*sigh*